<3

2012-02-06T04:56:00.000-08:00

-PJC
i still havent woke up from the fact that i will never step into cjc anymore./

GAGA

2012-01-09T07:09:00.000-08:00

Been quite awhile since i updated.
But life is really boring with work like i cant go anywhere!!!!
hoping to catch up with my friends real soon though.
Got back my results today,perhaps better than i expected but i felt i could do much better at the same time, but what's done is done
GOING EITHER CJC OR JJC i guess, Till x
Btw i love the OPI COLOUR I AM GETTING THE BIG ONE AND I GOT MY SHOEX

2012

2011-12-31T06:15:00.001-08:00

Awaiting for this new year since so long x
Finally o's have ended,four years of secondary education.
Feeling happy+sad la but i believe jc/poly will be better,no?
Anyway got a lot of resolutions but i know i wont fufill any:(
And my taiwan trip+outing havent upload pics yet :(
Working likea busy bee now Till then xxx

2011-12-17T02:50:00.000-08:00

Finally i can go taiwan tomorrow, finally i got my iphone,finally i bought my holga and polariod but i am not exactly happy either. Its like all this happiness will fade~
Definitely one day we will lose each other to each other mistakes to just distance which we can never comprehend but one day we will.

X 5 days

2011-12-13T06:42:00.000-08:00

Cant wait for my taiwan trip as usual x
I cant stand this anymore, going to facebook everytime seeing you online = tempting
And you are quite selfish i must say x

X

2011-12-12T06:44:00.000-08:00

Cant wait till all my friends are back! Cant wait to have a job! Cant wait to go back to see cute guy!!!!!!!
And i have tumblr alr yay :)
I have striked off the watch, desperately left the polariod+holga which i have been talking about since two years back argh why am i so indecisive?! And a new bottle of perfume xx

2011-12-10T07:11:00.000-08:00

Today went to town to have hatched with jinwen and min!<3
FREAKING GOOD.
And OPI COLOURS ARE SO PRETTY BUT I AM AFRAID I WILL BE DAMN LAZY.
Cant wait for monday and friday either,
Need to meet the people i love already! Cant wait to see Yinling and Etaine

Another week.

2011-12-10T07:03:00.000-08:00

I need a job like badly. But @ the same time really cant wait for next weekend
Its taiwan like finally! I really look foward to all the trips with my family!
Cant wait for ximending~ and to going to shifen to lighting the tian deng or something like that x

It's time to forgive you but i dont know if i can do it.
I really want to go out as planned but now i have no more guts anymore, because everything i do make me look like a plain idiot.
I dont want to put myself in fear and tears because i dont deserve it, no?
It makes me so afraid because who knows the impossible wont happen?

2011-12-07T07:21:00.000-08:00

You said things as if you did everything for my sake, but if it was would you stop and think how would i feel before you went ahead. I thought i could get over it, i thought i could act as if nothing happen but i cant. Because esp you know how much all this matters to me how important he is to me. Maybe to you that was nothing but to me, it meant the world ; if D OR O talked to me went out with me how would you have felt?! Would you really forgive me would you really pretend nothing happen? I dont think so. I told myself to stop being all so petty and to grow up because he isnt worth it, but i trusted you why did you do it? I hope i will forgive you and forget him in due time xx Till then,

TUMBLR

2011-12-07T07:06:00.000-08:00

There’s nothing wrong in showing that you care for someone. What’s bad is expecting him to do the same, because you’ll just be setting yourself up for disappointment.

Just because i dont start the conversation, doesnt mean i'm not dying to speak to you

2011-09-17T09:07:00.000-07:00

I think i could have dropped a million tears today xx
I feel so sad but there is nothing i could do but #dream

Friday

2011-09-16T07:04:00.000-07:00

Finally it is a friday like totally.
So finish most of my papers except bio(mcq) and poa paper 1! Hope the remaining papers would be easy.
I slacked so much today so much study doubly hard tomorrow and sunday xx
Today had a maths paper argh so hard until i wanted to fall asleep and i had totally no mood to do chempaper(mcq) felt so tired till i could die.
+CRAMPING LIKE MAD.
ASTROBOY WAS SO CUTE TODAY I SOMETIMES FEEL LIKE I AM IN A DREAM AND I AM SO RUBBISHY WTF
and headed home to eat before going to meet ninglu and yinling to f21.
Went to f21 and spent like 2h there!? wth right hahhaa i like almost 4 shoes and 1 dr marten: 4 shoes kns should i still buy it after o's? NO RIGHT?!?!??! WTHHHH SERIOUSLY HAHAHAHHA
had din tai feng before heading home for wanton mee <3 heheheheh i love my parents :3
I AM SO HAPPY TODAY ~~~~~ BYE BYE

X 14/9

2011-09-15T02:20:00.000-07:00

Time passes so quickly.
I am suppose to be studying but instead i am here blogging reading my fav bloggies and listening to the best music. HAHHAHAHA
Left with 4 papers! i need steamboat and starbucks dark mocha and mac pancakes yum ;)
HAHHAHAHA I WILL UPDATE ON SAT OR SOMETHING
NEED TO COLLECT MY SIS SHOES ARGH

2011-09-06T07:36:00.000-07:00

#The more i reply,the more i am afraid because i know one day you wont talk to me anymore

i am so tired and bored right now. Cant stop whatsapping its killing me. And i need to sleep badly but how about the work argh. I just need some time off today to think to sleep to relax ;)
Need to shop, i want to go bangkok after seeing all the pics! NO FAIR#
I WANT TO EAT DIN TAI FUNG AND STEAMBOAT # AFTER PRELIMS :)

#And i imagined conversations that we never had

2011-08-28T07:14:00.000-07:00

Will you let me be emonemo for a little while?
Because i am hearing to a really sad song #
I feel so weak and fallable.
I feel so shitty when i dont do any work when i only think about you.
Just now will be the last time i really look at your pictures, i promise #
I really miss you (1)(2)

I WANT

2011-08-28T06:51:00.000-07:00

DR MARTEN AND BAGGU BAG AND ALEXANDER WANG BAG AH
K I JUST HAD CRYSTAL JADE FEELING MAX

2011-08-26T21:42:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday nicole wong!!!!!!!!!
May your 14th birthday be blessed and nice x
Dont think you will read this but whatever :P
and i think you need to wait 2more weeks lor i am so sorry!
Hope you like it and your cake k goodbye :)

LONG weekends

2011-08-26T21:35:00.000-07:00

Though i get to rest and catch up with more but there seems to be a never ending of work to catch up with. Cant even spend time with friends and family and all i have is music and work. If i am lucky, i will get to spend time with my bed.
But,its all for the future, i want to be successful :)
I know i can!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But screwed up math a little yesterday with all those careless mistakes and guessing games and stupidity from me x
Ss was alright except for one part of SBQ. HMM.
english paper was okay i hope :)
I hope i will do well x.
Now back to chem and bio, to get a B3 is going to be real hard but i will try because i dont want to drop any subjects at this point in time.
Poa i think i can, geo i think i can except for natural geo(Must study this)
And amaths i am just praying heaven will side with me xx.
In 2 months time, i will be celebrating my birthday xx
I will be taking the emaths paper.
I will be happier :)
Okay off to eat there's only food left physically and mentally. I have been eating alot lately to cheer myself up and to relieve stress!
I want to buy alot of things for myself and i need to book the hotel(remind them)
I dont want to go for bio lessons argh.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
to you i cant help it//

3 more months ENDURE

2011-08-15T08:50:00.001-07:00

Its only like 2months+
Life is so mundane and tiring now, its just study>slack>sleep>eat.
I've been busy with schoolwork everyday! BIO+MATH+POA.
I better pass bio after doing so much. Hmmm.
I cant wait for weekends because dinner+icecream+friends make it so much better ;)
Like really better!!!!!!!Had thai express and coldrock on sunday, yumz ;)
Love coldrock!!!!!!!!! However didnt realy like thai express anymore, or was it the thing i ordered? Hahhahaa
I suddenly am very lazy to shop but i want to watch movies and more movies.
K i am now watching love keep going(1) and on the fringe(2)
And recently alot of English songs have been accompanying me to study!
Wherever you will go(1)Dont let me go(2)Over you(3)And random music by westlife,ll volo and linkin park ;) SO I AM NOT CHINESE WOMAN ALREADY HOR
KBOX SOON(BOI BOI BOI BOI BOI) HAHAHA DAMN CUTE JESSIE J

2011-08-13T22:40:00.000-07:00

I hate it when i touch my computer because when i do, i never stop.
Anyway, busy day and week ahead. x
Heading out to meet E and yinling at starbucks to study!
I am so full now but i want to eat thaiexpress,frolick and cold rock.
Food gives me motivation ;)
Next week busy with extra focus and tuitions, etc.
Chinese o's results out next week,well in the mean time got to prepare for english orals and goodbye for now xx

Only the best will survive

2011-08-11T08:55:00.000-07:00

Another approx 60 days,Endurance will bring you there xx
Tired week ahead, with much bio and maths and everything. Love study dates that i can nomnom hahahahhaha eat!!!!!
I WANT TO EAT WAFFLETOWN AND THAI EXPRESS WHO'S UP FOR IT

The thing that hurt the most may keep you going because you know you cant give it up

2011-08-05T06:20:00.000-07:00

Really love westlife :) Currently listening to my love by them!
hahaha it's hard for me to like english songs so i think its good!
Have to get this through by myself, really hope to find someone who understands what i am thinking. I need a hug real badly. Though the tears never seem to come, i feel so helpless.
-I wish heaven would make me stronger xx because i dont want to think about being someone else, being prettier,etc. I want to be myself, i want to love myself.
I dont live for others. We got to move on'
I want to just do my best, excel and go on. I dont want to be the one that never achieve anything, that does badly, that is the average. I want to be the BEST this time. I am trying so hard, yet no one understands. NO ONE ABSOLUTELY HAHAHAH I SHALL JUST READ BOOKS/WATCH SHOWS/LISTEN TO MUSIC AND STUDY I GUESS.
If my presence will cause you hurt/harm/awkwardness then please pretend i am not there x

So much to do so little time...

2011-07-31T07:36:00.000-07:00

I have been really busy lately.
I realised time is really running out, too fast for me to know.
2months left to prelims and 3months to 'o level the pressure is building up really fast xx. I need to study!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyway,i will go out pretty much soon after o's so i shall just wait and be patient
But i really need websites to download movies i need to watch them! And food seems to be my constant motivation+ ball games(pe) if possible :)
3more months i will survive i always tell myself i will. So much work from tomorrow onwards.I need to sleep i need to goodnight:)
P/S :I dont want to waste anymore time thinking about you nor the consequences if you know the truth. I admit i like you but then again i dont want to care about this anymore. Its not important enough to take up half of my time

BYE

2011-07-28T06:44:00.000-07:00

I wish i know how to make this feeling stop.

Maybe i was naive got lost in your eyes and never really had a chance

Fuck that Dont be a girl who needs a man, be the girl a man needs

-TUMBLR

他不是真正愛你的人

2011-07-27T08:06:00.001-07:00

hahahaha i am in a delimma, i dont know what to buy or what to chose. HOW!??!?!
I hate wednesdays because all i wish to do is to slack and eat. Its so tiring to survive on wednesday because there is no motivation from the previous day or to the next.
x anyway i hope you are doing fine :) Because seeing you makes me happy if that's the reason

Happy birthday Etaine

2011-07-24T01:58:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday babe, hope each year gets better and better for you.
Also, may luck shine on you and do well for your o's
Love sam xx.
P.S SORRY WE ORDERED A BOX OF "CHOCOLATES" BUT IT COULD ONLY BE HERE IN AUGUST BE PATIENT HAHAHAAHAHAH THAT'S IT

Pictures tomorrow :)

2011-07-22T06:29:00.001-07:00

I am happy today but not anymore-
Sometimes i dont know to cry or smile
I really think i like you x
HOW HAHAHHAHA
ER GOING RAILWAY TRACK TOMORROW CANT WAIT!
and tuition was cancelled today so played bball for one hour+!? Hahahha mad happy :)
And drank each a cup+ fruit juice which i disliked alot but i still finished it anyway! I love each a cup <3<3<3
And ate pizza Hut today treated etaine and my disgusting cake - Hahhaha sad lorrrr
Lunch was okayyyyy only la~~ HMM SO YEAH :)
Happy birthday babe will do an offical post for you tomorrow i guess ;)<3
I love fridays or anyday with PE HAHHAHA <3 YAYYYYYY
i think the post is really disorganised. K i shall do my emoing on another blog ;) <3

Addiction

2011-07-20T09:04:00.000-07:00

Recently, i have been addicted to taobao once again :(
I can spend hours viewing it without getting bored HAHAHAH
How i long to be addicted to studying and exercising !!!!! GAGA
Cant wait for meile jiayou :) Its my happy pill for Monday!!!!!! HAHHAHA SO CUTE LOR
I cant seem to find a reason for why i like you, i guess its the way you are.
I will try to keep it to myself if i can but i cant help it x

Fiction

2011-07-20T08:04:00.000-07:00

I really love fiction by beast i love the dance a lot <3
Had been a okay week but really tired at the middle of the week. HAHAHHA COLLAPSED ON THE BED WHEN I AM HOME.
Ran 2.4 today and NO I AM NOT HAPPY WITH MY TIMING. Blame it on my extensive laziness for the past two years. I have lost the motivation to run and exercise as much already. I am glad enough if i hit the gym twice a week.... hmm.
School was pretty much alright with the same lessons, Spa is next week and i am a little afraid yet want to end it quickly.
I went to bouna's railway track had a hard time jumping in HAHAHAHHA STUPID!!!!!! HATE RAILWAY TRACKSSSSSSSSSSSS ESP WHEN THE PICTURES COME OUT UGLY BUT I AM GOING AGAIN THIS SATURDAY YAY
Okay etaine's birthday this saturday should i make jelly?!??!?! IF I HAVE TIME -
HMM OKAY LA THAT'S ABOUT IT.

weekends are over.

2011-07-17T09:06:00.000-07:00

I have not started doing any revision because i can hardly catch up with the piling maths and poa and whatsnot. HAHAHHAHA
AND I WAS SUPPOSE TO POST PICTURES TODAY BUT I AM LAZYYYYYYY.
Anyway headed to fareast with ninglu! HAHAHA RICH GIRL
And i tried on things but never buy anything!:)
And we ate nice dinnnnerr :)SORRY YINLING :(((((((( I DIDNT DO IT ON PURPOSE
Watched harrypotter @ tiong hahahaha
I HATE THE CINEMA THERE SMALL+HOT+NOT ATMOSPHERE+NO HOT GUYS
ATE POPCORN!!!!! and went home after that ;)
Cant wait for next weekend KAP RAILWAY TRACK BEFORE IT CLOSES.
GOODBYE SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW

Some people think that holding on is what makes us strong. But sometimes, it is letting go

2011-07-11T07:34:00.000-07:00

I just felt like blogging. Blogging about how awesome my friends are. I think that at some point of time we want to be praise we want people to make us feel good, no?
I think i have quite a number of yadayada awesome friends though they always make fun of me :< i love them alot. I tend to think too much when i am in a bad mood but i know i will be okay because at the end of the day they will be at the other end smiling to me, at the end of the day i know i need them ;) Though pressuring to treat everyone equally, though hard to spare a thought for all of them at one point of time, though never enough time with every single one them, i still love them all.
Girls are just too awesome. I used to think boys are nicer yadayaada then one day i realise i could live without guys because my <3 and family could have just taken my whole heart.
@NL I KNOW YOU WONT READ MY BLOG BUT I AM FAKE EVERYTIME AHHAHA I MEANS SOMETIMES THE WORDS I SAY. IDK I FEEL THAT I CAN LET YOU GO BUT I ALSO FEEL THAT I NEED YOU BECAUSE SOMETIMES YOU JUST UNDERSTAND ME HAHHAHAHA <3 I CANT WAIT FOR HK ;)
@YL SILLY GIRL.I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY YOU CANT GET OVER HIM ;( BUT I GUESS ITS HARD I THINK I KNOW HAHAHAHAHA BUT I <3 YOU ALSO BECAUSE YOU SO SUIBIAN HAHAHHAHAHAH AND YOU LOVE WHAT I LOVE CAUSE YOU HARDLY SAY YOU DONT LIKE. HAHAHAHAHA
@P LOLLOL YOU ALWAYS LAUGH AT ME :< AND SCOLD ME :< HMMMMMM K LA STOP THINKING STOP THINKING <3 DONT DONT THINK OF HIM OKAY GUYS ARE JUST SO NOT WORTH IT LORRRRR. <3
@M hehehehe i <3 you if you are reading this. Its okay cry it out yo ;) Watch the show,go shopping,go and eat, gym anything you want to do. I bet you will be better soon enough because you are STRONG HEHEHE YAY <3
@jw,claris,huilin
i love you girls. Let's like go out kbox or sentosa after o levels okay! I miss spending days with you even if its just sitting at vivo rooftop eating sushi and playing BIG2 HAHAHAHA
@e
yozzzzzzz whatsup laaaaa apretty girl hahahahha sajiao so much lately so whiney later but <3 you la hahahhaa funyyyyy

-

2011-07-07T06:46:00.001-07:00

I DISLIKE GUYS WHO POST SUPER EMO STUFF ON FACEBOOK EVERYDAY. THE GIRL WONT COME BACK TO YOU ALSO WHAT!??!?!??! HAHAHHAA

Exhausted. NO MORE BRAIN JUICE

2011-07-07T06:41:00.000-07:00

I am so tired and its only thursday! How i wish we had a 4 day school week permanantly!
I ordered my stuff but i havent finish ordering.
And i got two test tomorrow :<
Happy birthday HUILIN ( THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE YESTERDAY) <333333333333333333333333
i miss hanging out with all of your :) Hehhehe
And oral was screwed but its over!!
I want the hk watch siaaaa hahhahaha
and i cant wait for fri and sat~ that's about it

2011-07-03T06:28:00.000-07:00

I got the message. Thanks.
I decided to let it end.
H.H.A.H.A.H.A.H.A.H.A.H.A.
I AM DYING I NEED TO BE MOTIVATED YO.
I WANT TO PLAY BASKETBALL!
I WANT TO EAT BUT DONT GET FAT.
I WANT TO GROW TALLER
I WANT TO SAVE MORE MONEY
I WANT OR RATHER NEED TO SHOP
I THINK MY WARDROBE HAVE NO MORE CLOTHES FOR ME TO WEAR BOOHOOO
BUT I LEARN HOW TO MAKE WRAPS WHICH ARE DELICIOUS YO :)
AND I WANT TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS.
ITS NOT THAT I DISLIKE MY FRIENDS NEITHER I HAVE A LACK OF FRIENDS BUT ONCE IN AWHILE TALKING TO NEW YET NICE PEOPLE MAKE YOU FEEL EUPHORIC AND HAPPY JUST HAPPY I DONT KNOW IF I USE WORDS CORRECTLY YUP OR GO OUT WITH PEOPLE WHOM I HAVE NOT REALLY GONE OUT WITH FOR A LONG TIME JUST MAKE ME SO HAPPY :) IDK WHY HAHAHAHHAHA PERHAPS I DONT LIKE TO BE FORGOTTEN YO :)
ORAL IS NEXT WEDNESDAY WISH ME LUCK PLEASE. I DONT WANT TO RETAKE SPARE ME GOD.

116 DAYS TO O'S

2011-06-29T08:06:00.000-07:00

everything is making me so tired.
Be it trying to talk to A,SCHOOL,piano and everything.
Sometimes i tell myself i can do it i can make it but at the end of the day i cant. I always cant. HAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
K LA ENOUGH ENOUGH.
YOZ
HOW'S SCHOOL. Everyday end at 5pm!!!!!!! tired right?!
I WANT TO GO OUT AND SHOP AND EAT AND ENJOY LIFE.
IF I DIE TOMORROW I WILL REGRET FOR NOT DOING THINGS I LIKE. YOZ BYE
I AM TRYING SO HARD, WHY ?!

Last two days

2011-06-25T08:35:00.000-07:00

It is saturday and the last two days of holiday!!
When i go back to school i MUST STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!
I MUST
Okay i went to eat my fav fishball noodles today :)
Freaking sad cause its closing Forever next week!!! AHHHH
Went to meet vel,joan for an hour to wait for her to complete her clothes buffet.
Luckily it didnt tempt me enough to go so yay cause i heard the clothes were damn ugly or outdated, no?
Went to meet Min and we bought koi!! Went to ann siang hill!!!!!!
Gossip + take alot pics<3<3 damn shiok but oakham market was close!
Next went dhoby for strictly pancakes but sadly was close.. so went to eat b&j!
Walked around town with jinwen for awhile before heading home and having dinner with my parents :) Happy today!!!!!!!!!! DR MARTENS AND HK TRIP. I <3
@MIN@JINWEN WE NEED TO MEET SOMEDAY TO STUDY @ THE PRETTY CAFES HAHAHAHHA :)
YINLING CHECK YOUR PHONE!!!!!!!!!! K BYE TOMORROW SCHOOL START. 4 MORE MONTHS I CAN ENDURE I BELIEVE. AND I GAINED HELLLOAD OF WEIGHT 6KG-.-

Time wont wait, people wont either, nothing will..

2011-06-23T06:54:00.001-07:00

Went to study with Yinling♥ today!!!!!!! went to kfc for the super nice porridge and eggtart hehehe :) But i am still craving for mac pancakes yo but this sat going to eat pancakes with Min♥!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay i put way to much exclamation marks no? And went to library to borrow books, borrowed gossip girl but havent started reading! Is it nice? HMMMM.
Because we wanted wifi, so went burger king! X10 JIALAT.
AND MY BAG/BACK WAS BREAKING DUE TO THE X100 BOOKS.
Dad made banana cake and herbal wrap chix. Hhehehe<3
I love it when dad cooks too ;)
Still havent decide what to buy yo damn lazyyyyyyyyy!
andpoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
I have no face now!!!!!!!!!!!

I need dr martens desperately

2011-06-21T06:28:00.000-07:00

Y'know i can like something for really long and when the thing is here,i go get it, it appears in front of me i realised i dont like it that much anymore. - Applies to almost everything.

I dont know why i did it but i felt i had to.
Anyway
-Weekends
all was okay and i want to bring like my friends to some korean store in a food court that sells fucking nice food :)
-Monday
Went to meet Steph and Karin<3 had subway yo!! and went to library to slack more than study~ Went tuition
-Tues
Went to look after my baby cousin and spend the rest watching random movies.
IF ALL MY DREAMS CAME TRUE I WILL JUST BE TOO HAPPY TO DESCRIBE HAHAHHAHA WTH. YES I KNOW

2011-06-20T08:57:00.000-07:00

wanted to post then i guess i will do it tmr cause i am tired and lazy and its 12.30ammmmmm i am in need of sleep yooooo!!!!

FATE

2011-06-16T22:31:00.000-07:00

no fate already T.T
Went to USSSSSSSS :) SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!! THE DAY STARTED OFF A LITTLE SHAKY.
Makeup screwed,running late, locker stuck,wrong tickets
But after that the day was so good with the freaking good people around me ;)
And thanks peace for the cheaper tickets. I swear i am gg there again after o lvls!
Fun its fun right no?! it is except for the quite expensive food!!!!
and we were so lucky we manage to sit every ride except i didnt have the guts to try the cyclone!! But perhaps will try that the next time i go yo!
And i saw this super cute guy************************* and i did something really embarrasing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! K la no fate and no hope k byebyebeybyebeybeyebyebyebebebyebbe.
Anyway the night was great but needed more photos hehehehe :) NEXT TIME NEXT TIME YO!
And we need to go on friday night i want fireworks~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ;)
So that's it whats better than great place+great company NOTHING HEHEHE <3

GOODBYE GIRL

2011-06-13T06:41:00.000-07:00

YOZ TODAY WENT OUT WITH YINLING
TREAT HER TO MARCHE BUT THE FOOD SUCK SOMEHOW SORRY BABE FOR THE NOT SO GOOD FOOD BIRTHDAY TREAT <3 HEHEHE AND WENT ON TO BUY HER SHOES AND SUNGLASSES. AND OMGGGGGG I TRIED DR MARTENS FOR THE FIRST TIME OF MY LIFE. HEHEHE AND I DECIDED THE PAIR I LIKE ALREADY ACCEPT THE TRUTH MIDDLE/HIGH CUT I JUST CANT CARRY OFF ITS LIKE WORKPANTS NO MATTER HOW NICE A PAIR IS IT DOESNT SUIT ME HAHAHA
TOOK NEOPRINT W N HAHAHHA
ANYWAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALICIA YO HOPE YOU LIKE THE ROMPER SWEET 16 BABE!!!!!
WEDNESDAY CANT WAIT NOW

I AM LIKE YADAYADA

2011-06-10T22:53:00.000-07:00

The days are passing like damn fast?!
Last wed was the last day of school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thursday was out with yinling to smoochiez warehouse ;) Freaking cheap makeup hehehehe i love!!!!!!! OPI
Went home to try them on and had mac ;) hehehe <3 her
I was freaking late hahahahaha
Went to meet joan to fareast and nex!!!! Nex is like the new jp yo freaking alot of food and stuff! Ate desert story damn shiok and passed jan the rings! She super pretty hahahaha and skinny!!!!!!!!
Okay my day was pretty good :)

Then moving on to friday.Went for a walk with mum and sister in the morning and went to orchard with my parents after that! Had korean for lunch freaking good! And robinsons blablabla i bought makeup again LOL AT MYSELF SERIOUSLY. HAHAHHAA
Went chinatown and i grumbled that i dont want to get out of the car to eat at chinatown so dad brought us to coronation plaza for vegetarian. I totally hate myself for grumbling cause the food was like $80 and damn yuckkkkkkkkkk hahhahahaa so DONT EAT AT THE VEGETARIAN THERE
okay saturday shall be spent lazing at home till then ;)

Lots of stuf

2011-06-08T17:13:00.000-07:00

4june
-Went to doc's
- Spent 3 hours walking aimlessly around orchard
- Went to queue up and waited to go into Victoria Jomo Fit All You Can Event
Liked the event quite alot except the time they gave was way too short and things were too messy
- Went scape flea
- Home for steamboat
School till today
-Going out later with Ninglu and yinling first to smoochiezzzzzz yay
- Going out with joan to fareast!
ZAIJIAN CANT WAIT

If you want an answer.

2011-06-03T07:37:00.000-07:00

I wasnt a essential before or after this two years. However the question about importance, nah you werent less important last year, two months ago, one day ago. But i am sad you doubt that when the truth is to obvious to show.

wtf

2011-06-02T07:46:00.000-07:00

Funny or what hahahhahhaha (took this from friend's fb!!)

Happy birthday dearest YINLING :)))

2011-05-27T21:05:00.000-07:00

You may have thought i forgotten you but i havent ;)You may think that others reminded me to post and hence blablabla but no okay!! cannot doubt me i will be damn sad!!!!!!!!!!! I just wanted to make you worried/sad hehehhe i know i am bad :((( DID YOU CRY? I HOPE NOT.
You are on my mind almost every minute how could i possibly forget it was your BIRTHDAY HUH :)))))))))) YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST LOVELY BEST BFF I HAVE AND I HAVE NEVER REGRET MEETING YOU. - THATS MY ANSWER AND THATS WHO YOU ARE TO ME!!!!!!
4JUNE,15JUNE!!!!!!!CANT WAIT. THOUGH YOU DONT LIKE SHOPPING BUT YOU STILL GOT ALOT OF SIMILAR FAVOURITES SIMILAR TO ME :)
1. YOU LOVE PLAYING SPORTS- OR MAYBE YOU DONT LOVE BUT YOU WOULD STILL PLAY W ME!!!
2. YOU AGREE TO ALMOST EVERYTHING GOOD OR BAD?! HAHAHHAHAA BUT THANKS FOR ALWAYS SHARING YOUR FOOD WITH ME HEHEHHEHE
3. YOU AND ME VERY LOVE $$$$$ BUT I KNOW WE NOT STINGY I HOPE ( SELF-PRAISE)
4. WE ARE SUPER EMOTIONAL? NO? IDK :)) BUT WE LOVE TO CRY I LOVE TO DO YOU?
5. YOU ARE LEARNING TO DO THINGS WE LOVE( LIKE SHOPPING,DRESSING UP, MAKEUP) THE THINGS I REALLY LOVE AND I LOVE YOU FOR THAT ;)
6. YOU HARDLY SCOLD ME UNLIKE HMMMMMMM HEHEHHEHEHE AND WE HAVE NEVER QUARREL BEFORE
7. WHEN IT GETS TO BOYS GAGAGA WE GO MAD
8. WE BOTH LOVE SLIPPERS LOL K I ANYHOW AND WE BOTH WEAR SPECS
9. WE BOTH VERY SHY ( K LA I AM JOKING!!)
10.WE LOVE AFFECTION YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY AND WE WANT TO GO JJC LOL AIMLESS PEOPLE WILL LOOK DOWN ON US :((((((((( SMALL AMBITION
HEHEHEHHEEHEHEHE THOUGH THOSE 2 YEARS THANKS FOR BEING THERE AND I KNOW IT WAS LIKE DUH AT FIRST AND PERHAPS AT SOME POINT OF TIME WE ARE JEALOUS OF ONE ANOTHER AND WE GET LEFT OUT BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY WE STILL LOVE EACH OTHER AND THAT IS WHAT MATTERS MOST.
THOUGH YOU GOT PERHAPS TO YOU SMALL EYES YOU ARE PRETTY. YOU ARE MUCH PRETTIER THAN ME EVEN WITH SMALL EYES SO DONT LET SMALL IMPERFECTIONS FAIL YOU! I LOVE YOUR LEGS AND YOUR SKINNINESSSSS AND YOUR HAIR SO BABY YOU GOT NICE STUFF.
I LOVE YOU CAUSE YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE READING MY BLOG!!!!!!
BUT I AM ANGRY CAUSE YOU THINK SO LITTLE OF ME :( YOU THINK I DONT LOVE YOU YOU THINK I FORGOTTEN YOU HAHAHAHA BUT I SHALL FORGIVE YOU. I HOPE YOU REALLY LIKE THE CARDS AND SWEETS AS FOR YOUR SURPRISE HMMMMMM ;) I HOPE I CAN FIND SMTH YOU LIKE.
REALLY WISHED I HAD ENOUGH FUNDS TO GET YOU YOUR PINK CAMERA BUT LOOKS LIKE T.T YOU KNOW I AM ALWAYS GOING - NO MONEY LEH HAHAHAHAHA
SO IF I KNOW YOU WHEN I GROW UP I WILL MAKE IT UP TO YOU BABE ;)
LASTLY, you are 16 16 16 this year look at it 16. How time passed that quickly.
Finally nc16 movies and scary o levels but though all this 16 is one of the best year.Hope we can meet forever!!!!!<333333333333333333333 and stay like this forever<3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333
LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BABE I HAVE LOW SELF-ESTEEM AND ALWAYS CRY AT THE SMALLEST THING BUT I KNOW THAT YOU MUST BE STRONG YOU CAN OVERCOME ALL THIS YOU CAN THATS WHO YOU ARE. CHUAYINLING CAN:)
i got smth for you

Over the years, we fumble we fall cause of love. Be it a real r/s or puppy love or ' aa' love okay thats what i call people who play with each other r/s just being aa trying to gain attention like 'wow you are in a r/s with who? ' people would notice you right. i know

Then the ones that hurt the most are the one that contributed alot but didnt get what they were suppose to in return or those who didnt appreciate the right one when he was around and hence turning him into the wrong one or the one that came at the wrong time
I dont know when i fell into a real r/s whether if all were puppy love or i did contribute love in. However, i do believe that love can ruin you or bring you up. People in love cant see the world but perhaps the world is already in them. While people who fall out of love believe that love will be a total lie and there is no such thing as true love.

But to get over heartbreaks and move on and trusting love once again and yet again will you find the right one. - i believe
SO ANYWAY AFTER A BREAKUP

1. CRY CRY CRY YOU WILL FEEL BETTER

2. REWARD YOURSELF IT AINT YOUR FAULT AND EVEN IF IT IS RUMBLING OVER IT WONT CHANGE ANYTHING SO GET ON WITH IT GO AND SHOP/PLAY/WATCH MOVIE SPEND TIME WITH PEOPLE YOU NEGLECTED :)

3. TELL YOURSELF YOU WILL BE FINE FIND A BETTER ONE TALK TO GUYS THINK ABOUT THE DREAM GUY. ACT CUTE AND FALL FOR NEW GUYS.

It isnt easy but i believe everyone can. I can :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Though i get jealous when i see girls with b,ck,zy but so what. its over already and i got to get over it. The fact that they wont be mine and even if i had a chance with them once the chance is gone forever. ACCEPT IT. WAKE UP HAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHA PLEASE

DONT BRING YOURSELF DOWN DONT BE EMO GIRL BECAUSE YOUR PRIDE SHOULD stay. WE SHOULDNT LIVE OUR LIVES FOR GUYS WHO DONT DESERVE IT. Like how we dont live our lives for anybody we dont do it for guys. So cheerup and move on ;)

Even if it was both parties fault think that it is his fault for not appreciating you and it is his loss! FUCK YEAHHHH GIRLS ARE THE BEST
BUT DONT BECOME LIKE ME TURN ABIT LES LIKE THAT HAHAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA
BECOME A GIRL WHOM GUYS WILL RESPECT AND LOVE
OF COURSE I DISLIKE IT WHEN YOU TALK TO ..........(YOU KNOW WHO) BECAUSE I AM JEALOUS THEY GET YOUR ATTENTION AND I DONT T.T
I HOPE I AM SOMEONE WHO BROUGHT MUCH JOY INTO YOUR LIFE,
ONCE AGAIN I AM GOING TO POST THIS ON 11.11 TO MAKE ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE. <3 YOU BBBBGG :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EMOGIRL95 :(

2011-05-23T08:06:00.000-07:00

hehehehe sometimes i feel empty. I dont feel like doing anything. I think life is meaningless. Yes i have a lot of emo days. There are days where i just feel like eating pills or sleeping myself to death, many in fact. I always thought
- what is the meaning of life when i dont have much ?
I was not born with anything good. Really. i dont like to compare but i cant help it T.T
The only thing i feel like doing is nuaing and doing somethign that i love to do-
the only thing that makes me happy is laughter and slacking~~~ and sleeping aiyo when did my life become like that?!??!?!?!
I feel like shit now.
sometimes its weird how one can move on so fast without you anymore. But when you realised that then you got to move on totally.. i guess

2011-05-19T08:25:00.000-07:00

i damn sad now
_|_ how can both items i want be sold out really lor tmdtmd x10 :((((((((((((((((
i hate my life!!! so sad right!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Life is a bitch total bitch.

2011-05-19T02:49:00.000-07:00

omg yinling cant :((((((((((((((((((
I will try to upload asap k
Disappointing results but what can i say?
Its my own downfall for watching drama when its so near exams and for being overconfident. BOO HAHAHAA
ANYWAY DID ENJOY MYSELF @ MB THOUGH RATHER TIRED AND RUSH THAT DAY!
LOVE PHOTOS EVEN THOUGH THEY WERE REALLY UGLY :))))))
and bought stuff online hope still got stock!
K anyway study harder and yay i hope everything willl be better :)
We say we cant but we can because if we dont try we will never know we can.
Gave you up throw you aside(tried) but i can though i cant bear to

MAY

2011-05-09T00:25:00.000-07:00

i am like dying!
All i have been doing is slacking and watching tv.
exams wont do well this time but hais, it is my own mistake.
never study = confirm fail!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg and i finall dont really like "food" already
hmm, bleahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i dont know what to type already
recently keep thinking of him and another thing but that thing cannot happen cause if it ever happen its over for me.
I will tell you when i leave.

I AM TRYING

2011-04-25T05:59:00.001-07:00

I HAVE FORGOTTEN. BYE

New start. 25/4

2011-04-25T05:47:00.000-07:00

Well, i always seem to blog about where to go/ what to buy right.
And here i am doing it again
but before that
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINWEN<3<3<3
I love you a lot really words cant really express how much i miss the times spent with you! Those act cute neoprint days to those bored fareast days to kill time! To band days where we always used to eat a lot + play @ sky garden!!!!!!!!! You was someone i could confide in and laugh with.
Though all these couldnt happen anymore i still want to tell you those were one of the best memories!!!!!!!!!! I love you xx after o levels,i hope we perhaps could work tgther/go out more often etc. See you soon babe muacksssssssssssssss.

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Next..
Had napfa test today.It was alright though i didnt do well at least i passed. HAD SUBWAY SHIOK. and went to cotton on!!!!! i luv the shorts,leopard tank and checkered long-sleeve but i decided to be good and save money...........LOL
YES I MUST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND I DID NOT BUY THE PULLOVER/CAPE CARDIGAN EITHER. WOWWWWW :(
After exams shop! Shop
so yeah wwent home with dad tired max now.
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I want to try to stop looking @ you. But i am so contradicting. I cant do it.
Everytime i see you i just need to look. I cant stop because i feel happy just to see you.But if a rich guy appears in front of me more shiok LOL
YES I AM MATERIALISTIC I ADMIT I REALLY AM HHAHHAHAH I WANT TO LIVE WITH DIAMONDS AND GOLD AND SILVER LOL. SHIOK RIGHT DRIVE SPORTS CAR PICK ME
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I NEED TO KEEP LONG HAIR I DECIDED AND NEED TO SAVE MONEY FOR MAY-JULY BIRTHDAYS BABIES + MOTHER'S/FATHER'S DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HEHEHEHHE :P I NEED ABOUT 200$$$$

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AND NEXT I WANT TO GO ALOT OF PLACES
SEOUL GARDEN THIS FRIDAY!YAY HAPPY TTM.
AND GO OUT AND PLAY AFTER EXAMS ON THURS.
AND USS...SHOPPING.... YAY I JUST CANT WAIT THIS IS GETTING ON MY NERVES.

Long weekend gone. Drape cardigan dashed.Pink blazer with little hopes

2011-04-24T07:04:00.000-07:00

HAIS DAMN SAD.
I NEVER BUY MY DRAPE CARDIGAN AND FOR THE PINK BLAZER I REALLY LOVE I AM AFRAID I WONT LOOK NICE IN IT.... WHY AM I NOT SKINNIER. HEAVEN YOU ARE UNFAIR :<
TAOYAN :< ANYWAY STAR AWARDS. BAD DRESSING BUT I REALLY LOVE FANN'S LEOPARD PRINT DRESS EH DAMN CLASSY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ALSOALSO I CANT WAIT TO GO HK AND EXAMS OVER
FML I HOPE THERE GOT Alot of blazers i like!! at least i wont regret not buying all this...
napfa tomorrow abit scared dont think i will do well but.......
K so gooodbye<3

2011-04-21T23:47:00.000-07:00

OMG HAHAHAHA LOVE THEM

2011-04-21T23:46:00.000-07:00

I WANTED THAT PULLOVER AND I WANT TO POST MORE PICTURES BUT FUCK BLOGGER LOL

2011-04-21T23:43:00.000-07:00

May is coming and today's good friday.

2011-04-21T23:36:00.000-07:00

WOah feels so shiok to have a 4 day school week.
I luv it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<3<3<3 but i am wasting my time away cause i feel like nuaing!!!! I am tired.Hot and look like shit now hahahahaha
The last week went out with jinwen/yinling/ninglu!!!
Happy birthday jinwen yo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! three more days
And had lotsa of food over the week. Hmm,tuttifruity never disappoint.
Mac salad was the opposite though not worth my money @ all.
Each a cup was the best :)
And luckily i didnt throw hun away :> Love her the most yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
napfa on monday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And i felt really lonely but i am okay already.
Phew sister sick.
And i want my cape jacket:> hehehehe mad love with shopping again gagaga
received my polka dot jacket!!! wasnt as good as i expected but still okay i guess.
Hmmm. i cant wait for mid year to be over.
USS,PARTYWORLD,SEOULGARDER(FUCK I REALISED SOMETHING),Marche,crepes<3,SWIRL ART,MARINA BARRAGE,NEOPRINTZ,MOVIES,CHILLING,SHOPPING,BIRTHDAYS,BEAUTIFUL SHOES AND PICTURES.AND THE ULTIMATEEEEEEEEEEEE
HMMMMMM.

Dont make me use the b word

2011-04-17T06:19:00.000-07:00

ahhahahahaa misunderstanding?
Well,i can forgive and forget but you better make sure you can and not yadayada and talk behind our backs.
Dont assume things if you dont really know what it means.
anyway impression of them totally changed and i guess i wont be so friendly to them anymore. KTHX.
AND DONT ACT CUTE

Money money drop from the sky, please

2011-04-17T06:06:00.000-07:00

Spent a whopping $180 last week(estimated not sure if i did forgo any thing)
WTHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH:>
IT WAS SO EX AND NOT WORTH AH.
AND MY POCKET MONEY IS ONLY $40 WITH A $50(FOR WEEKEND AND TEST)
HMMMMMM SO NEXT WEEK GOT TO SAVE :((((((((((((((
+ WHEN IS MOTHER/FATHER'S DAY?! HAVENT PUT ASIDE ANY MONEY YET :(
K AND PPOA AND GEO TEST NEXT WEEK. I STILL CANT GET POA STUFF
AND YESTERDAY WENT OUT WITH JW/NINGLU/YINLING!
hahaha bought jw her present which she like a lot!
And ate steamboat+berrylite shiok i love oreobits the most.
I NEEED TO HEAD DOWN TO SHARETEA AND SOUR SALLY SOON LOVE MY DAILY NECESSITIES IF POSSIBLE. KK GOT CHA GET THERE
EXCITED FOR THE BLAZER+TB THINGS AND EXAMS AND POST EXAMS HEHEHE GOODBYE

omg

2011-04-15T08:25:00.000-07:00

I am listening to just the way you are by some korean kid.
He is definitely good unlike...... tsk
Today definitely have been a good one.
Speech day therefore 3 periods of lesson shiok ttm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i am afraid for 2.4 KM T.T I DONT WANT TO DEPROVE.......
and went home before coming out to eat pizzahut with yinling and ninglu!!<3
BOUGHT BBT FOR PEK SO NICE
Went for tuition after that. 3H+ WANT TO DIE. HAHAHHAA CALBEE SHIOK AND 2 BOTTLE OF WATER. ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
AND TUITION DAMN FUNNY TODAY AND GOT CUTE GUY BUT NOT AS CUTE ALREADY LA T.T
Collected birkenstock and kind of disappointed so considering to sell it if i can get back for what i bought for(PRICE)
SO if you are interested i have florida ice in size 39!!!!!!!!!!!! leave a comment. Price around 90(nego)
ERRRR IF CANT FIND BUYER THAN I WILL JUST WEAR LOR. BUY ALREADY WEAR ONLY.
HAHAHA JUST REGRET THINK DR MARTEN LOOK NICER :))
BUT NEVERMIND. I HOPE TMR CAN GO OUT WITH JW THEY ALL BUT DONT KNOW IF I NEED TO GO DINNER WITH MY FATHER FRIENDS.
HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.
DAMN SIAN T.T SAT AND SUNDAY MUST DO HOMEWORK PLEASE THIS IS THE FIRST SATURDAY NO TUITION YAY HAPPY TO THE MAX!!!! HEHEHE LAZY TO GO LA!!!
errrrrrrrrrrrrr i blog quite often?

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gossip alot right today.
Guys are nothing but cowards.
They cant hit girls, dont dare to scold us directly in our faces.
Only dare to talk behind our backs.
fuck you totally.
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i guess i can put down all these. Because i know the impossiblities between us-
Getting to know you seems totally hard and i dont want to try.
This crush lasted for a few weeks i guess?
Perhaps i was bored and wanted someone to look at?
I can do this- Because i hate the people around you.
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fuckers

2011-04-14T08:40:00.000-07:00

Dont blame us for what you have done.
Dont fucking throw the blame at us.
I have apologised and till then i didnt do anything wrong.
I am just helping a friend and not like some people who betrays their friends right-
I dont think you got rights to criticise us.
Because your are just two-faced people with no guts.
Dont dare admit what you have done? Why? Talk behind our back only?
Really. Totally. So just fuck yourself _|_

2011-04-13T06:31:00.000-07:00

I dont know if you are just pretending to be happy or really happy. xx
As a friend i feel sad for you reallly. I wish i could do more but i cant.

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everytime i see you i dont know to look or not to look. You are causing me to be brain dead cause i am like living in fantasy all the time which sucks totally.
really x

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I want to study i want to do well i want to lose weight i want to save money.
But all this are just thoughts if i dont put them to action they will never come
true right. And i just threw another 75 hahahhaa birkenstock you are so going to be
mine <3<3<3<3<3<3 happy girl 95.
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Guys either seperate or fight. Why?
1D1,2D1,3D1,4D1 definitely were not the best of times-
Lucky i always had friends.
But to think back,a LOT OF THINGS HAPPENED.
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How i wish i could just be with you at a farm and farm animals hahahhhahahahahahahahaha the life i hate most but i think i will still be happy as long as there is you.
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Whether i still love him, i dont think so but i do like him more. Biased.
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Falling in love again -

2011-04-12T05:20:00.000-07:00

- When people ask me what I see in you, I honestly don’t know what to tell them, cause I honestly don’t know, but when I look in your eyes, I see magic and happiness.
Countless times, that i am numb
I dont know i fall in and out of love easily!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2 B & J CONES WTFFFFFFFFFFFFF + MAC FRIES HAHAHAHHAHA + DINNER+ RECESS+BREAKIE
FUCK
I THINK I HAVE BECOME MORE VULGAR IDK WHY EITHER TO PROTECT MYSELF HAHAHHAA
EHHHHHHH THURSDAY GOT TUITION TMD SIA
AND TODAY HAD CHINESE/ENG TEST BOTH DAMN HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND I NEED TO SHOP............................................................... AND SEE YOU CAUSE WHEN I SEE YOU MY WHOLE WORLD IS JUST AS AMAZING AS YOU

hey

2011-04-10T03:23:00.000-07:00

hey shoes hahahha i need you<3 muacksssssssss cant wait for my stuff
handharness oos how bad is that huh :((((((((((
and hehehehehehe
so much during the week
chickenhotpot,kbox blaaaaaaa and chemtest and chi test up next week!
Got to start studying man!!!! And i am so tired and fickle minded i realised.
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Find me

2011-03-30T06:26:00.000-07:00

xx if anyone found my private blog one day you would understand.

2011-03-30T06:19:00.000-07:00

“Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down.” — Oprah Winfrey

It doesn't matter who you knew the longest cause in the end it's all about who stuck by your side.

Making hundred friends in a day is not a miracle. The miracle is to make a friend stand by you for a hundred years.”

Tired as much as you are. X
I got to be stronger, much tougher things await me.
aWWW GOT THIS PRETTY PINK BLAZER WHICH I WANTED TO GET SINCE A MONTH AGO BUT IT COST A $50 AND I CANT BEAR TO SPENT IT. DUH~~~~~~~
Really envy those girls, If i had a choice i hope i would be like them in my afterlife. lUV

Shopaholic

2011-03-29T04:46:00.000-07:00

i am spending way too much.
I half hate half like.
ERRRRR I THINK I VERY DUI BU QI MY PARENTS FOR WORKING SO HARD AND ME SPENDING ALL THIS SHIT ON MYSELF BUT I CANT CONTROL MYSELF :(((((((((((((((((((
AH NO MORE NO MORE DONT TEMPT ME ANYMORE. GO AWAYYY :(
I HOPE THE WORLD SHUTS DOWN X.
okay i need to save so buttergun maybe not?
Friday maybe look and go? hahahaha idk la byebyebye!!!!!

Time is nothing

2011-03-29T03:27:00.000-07:00

Time doesnt prove that something is stronger and wont fall off because you took longer to built it up.
Its trust and sincerity trust me

2011-03-28T07:20:00.002-07:00

DAMN IT.
I KNEW IT I COULD HAVE GUESS IT.
IF YOU WANT TO DO IT DONT HAVE TO BE SO OBVIOUS? NO?
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anyway started tuitioN!
and spent another $50 -.-
DAMNIT LOL

2011-03-28T07:20:00.001-07:00

MOTHER FUCKERS
WHERE HAVE ALL THE PEOPLE I LOVE GONE?
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2011-03-25T07:50:00.001-07:00

I wished that i never fell in love again.
Need you nowx

2011-03-25T07:44:00.000-07:00

BIG=BEAUTIFUL? NAH SKINNY IS THE NEW BEAUTIFUL
And i really doubt inner beauty.
till then

Oh dear, Its friday but a friday i dread,

2011-03-18T06:43:00.000-07:00

Hahaha its the end of the one week holidays huh!!
Er spent it lazing at home watching tv?!??!! LOL.
I Need to Study Badly :(
HAHAHAHAHAHA SPENT LIKE 100$ THIS HOLIDAY THIS SUCKS LOLLOL.
ERRRR K AND I REALLY LOVE WISTMA BUBBLE TEA TO THE MAX MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IF ORCHARD IS NEAR MY HOUSE.......
AND I WANT TO TAKE PART IN THE SHOW :( BUT VERY :$ LOLLOL.
KKKKK BYE EXCITED

Surprise

2011-03-11T05:26:00.000-08:00

Hahahha hi.
Its the march holidays already. How time flies.
Cant wait for nov :> Errrrr kind of scared for o level but yeahhhhhhhhhh
Busy week ahead with much catching up of work + fun!!!!!!!! Hellyeah :)
Neoprintz hahahhahahahha Favourite.
All the things i ordered havent come :(
And my magazine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Huh. Bio and chem spa was okay:) Except for the graph.
GEO/CHI TEST WAS OK.
yay for me. P.O.A
Anyway, isnt it funny to know that you leave some people's heart that easily but they take a very long time to leave your heart?
new eye-candy huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ^^
Good thing i guess. At least cant wait byebyebyebyebey

Hey its been a long time huh!!!!

2011-02-23T07:41:00.000-08:00

ERRRRRRRRRRRR, I DONT KNOW WHERE TO START EITHER.
ER THE START OF FEB?
1,CHINESE NEW YEAR WAS FINE WITH REUNION DINNER AND A FEW VISITING BUT THIS YEAR EVERYBODY LIKE VERY TIRED AND NO MOOD HUHHHHHH. HAHAHAHA ME TOO :(
COLLECTED 400 ODD $$$$$$ IN THE BANK IT WENT
AND AFTER THAT IT WAS SCHOOL + SCHOOL+ SCHOOL
2.valentine's day!! thanks babeeees for the stuff <3
I realised out of 15 years of valentine's day none was great so i dont seem to see a point to celebrate v day but friendship day, hmm perhaps
3.and went to eat sweets with the four of them! hehehe first time eating tgther damn funnnnn!!!!!!!! yay
4.went out with ninglu to take neoprint lovez it!!!!! make you look so nice make me feel better about myself. i still have that self-esteem problem sometimes. It just keep on haunting me.
5,SCIENCE SPA IS COMING AND WALKAJOG AND I STARTED CHEM TUITION(hope it goes well)!!!!!
6.HAHAHAHA SOMEHOW I HAVE MIXED FEELINGS ABOUT THE RUN. I REALLY WANT TO DO IT BUT I DONT BELIEVE I CAN RUN THAT WELL ANYMORE XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX HOW :(
NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRAIN IT JUST 2 WEEKS, WHAT CAN I DO?
7.AND MY 10KG PLAN CONFIRM FAilllllllllllllll. everyday my mind is clogged with food food andmore food. At least food is my nearest source of motivation!??!!
8. Moodswings occur from time to time
9. had so many tests ( bio i did not do well.)
errrrrrr and some others la. i hate poa noww somehow- Mr chan was hotter? You gotta agree right.
10. today 23 feb was my most enjoyable pe lesson after so long
11. found a few songs i really love and a few shows and a few blog that i love.xx
12. dislike shopping abit more. though when i am serious i will waste all my time.
13. Stopped loving xx. I have come to an end with guys- Period.
I will still blush over guys/think of hot guys but this are all somehow unreal already. I just find being in a r/s with guys is kind of weird now?! For me la.
errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr perhaps it is,none was successful hahahaa
14. My main source of motivation-
everyday: food and friends
friday: end of the week and my fav newspaper
every 14-16 of each month: fav magazineeee<3
every week: pe lessons
every fortnightly/monthly: outings with friends
coming: march holidays
long term: hk,bkk,end of o levels, work <3<3
i got so many motivation but its not working!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gawdddddddddddd
its 12 am already and i got to sleep now hehehehe bye
i dont know who will ever read a wordy post but yeahhhh
yinling hello!!!!(if you finish reading this post) hahahhahahaha

How's your cny?

2011-02-05T22:34:00.000-08:00

For me, it was x2 reunion dinner.
Both was alright but perhaps kinship ties arent there yet!!!!!
And visiting on the first, didnt have the atmosphere :( people were sick!!
Second day was visiting and went ninglu's house awhile!
Third day was dinner and shopping but was not filling well during shopping had no mood @ all. felt like fainting huh :/
and last day at home hahahahahhaa
boring huh?! next year i will make it more interesting!!!!
every year cny for me is to become prettier and eat more goodies and get more angbaos LOL

25jan11

2011-01-25T03:30:00.000-08:00

Its claris birthday tomorrow so an early happy birthday to you babe!!!!
Remember the times when we were real close during sec1s and part of sec2s i really miss them!!! Hope your 16th birthday would be a blast babe!! With loads of love <33333 its o level but at least yours is still super far away from o's!!! Enjoy

K life has been good!! Ups and downs but i see clearly whom i should give my time to already.
Love the babes alot!! Cant finish telling them about my life everyday in class!! And one nice sentence from them can make my whole day already!
Cant wait for trips and sleepovers and everything!! But o's levels must do well too!!
I dont like seeing my parents disappointed :(
So work hard and play hard ;) hehehe i love online shopping now. And michellephan is a real genuis!!See her lastest makeup tutorial!! Damn nice. Neeed blusher right now hahahha!! I need longer hair man!!! and ashincan backorder opens next week :( hehehe but its okay i should get it?! YES/NO HAHAHA

2011-01-21T17:22:00.000-08:00

Hi, i am finally back from Camp!!!
Camp = social dancing+ night hike+ workshops = not fun :(
This camp was not fun overall, but still time spent with the people i love was awesomez.
And yami yoghurt was da best right. Jumbo cup happy max
k i cannot sleep anymore. I need to do work so that i can go out tomorrow.
Hahahah retarded pics from camp :( I DONT LIKE HAHAHA

First week of 2011

2011-01-08T07:57:00.000-08:00

School was alright but must get use to it! And i havent fell asleep in any classes yet^^!!!!!!!!!!!
POA IS HARD. THERE ARE SO MANY TEST NEXT WEEK. I BROUGHT MY BOOKS BACK BUT I DONT HAVE THE MOOD TO STUDY. TRIGO KILLING ME TOO.
BUT THE GOOD THING IS CLEMENTI MALL GOING TO OPEN SOON GOT LIBRARY TO STUDY WOOHOO
I HATE STUDYING AT HOME CAUSE THE INTERNET AND TV SUCHA BITCH. IT DISTRACTS ME NO MATTER HOW MUCH MY MIND TELLS ME TO STUDY.
AND I AM LOOKING FOWARD TO FRIDAY AND PERHAPS IDK WHEN^^
CAMP IS ON THE THIRD WEEK.... HAHAHAHA AND CNY COMING IN LESS THAN A MONTH?
EXCITED? YES
AND I NEED TO SAVE MONEY AND LOSE SOME WEIGHT MAN HAHAHAHA
I STILL DONT DARE TO TALK TO YOU BECAUSE I SCARED MEMORIES WILL HAUNT ME AGAIN

2011

2011-01-03T06:09:00.000-08:00

Its 2011. K i am late but who cares^^
New year resolution?
Many but mainly
- Study hard
- Lose weight
- Spend time with people i love
- Save money
If i can do this four, 2011 will be my best year alright <3
cause after o's,^^
I know its been so hard to get over rejection and stuff, but sam's strong enough!!!
I can do it ;)
Real busy this year.
With studies and exercise+ meeting up with people i love!!! Hahhaaha so i hope i wont think of silly stuff and be emotionally affected.
Letting go is one,forgetting is another. And will i do both? I hope so. But even if i float around, its okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ;)
2011 please be better kkkkkkkkkkk <3
School's tomorrow. Real quick right.
K since school really started, i will do my work from tmr onwards.
Try to study 2h each day!! or at least after cny?! hehehe
K CHEERS TO 2011. FORGET 2010 AND THE BAD THINGS WHICH HAPPENED IN 2010.
EXCEPT A FEW WHICH I WILL REMEMBER ALWAYS

31

2010-12-31T04:33:00.001-08:00

Today was not great at all.
I had a really bad dream which made me cry till i woke up.I quarrelled with my sister till i cried in the morning, had to rush all the way to grandpa's house, went for bbq thought of it as fun but i felt so left out and all and i left. And i wasted my money on water. K la joke. And i went home sleep. And woke up at home.
K whats new year eve so bored and with so much of crying.
Want to live each day real happy xx
I am still waiting for your sms that's all maybe it could make me a teeny weeny bit happier but i still have not got it.
2010
-Did okay in my studies.
-Closer the bond with some friends, and drifted from some.
-Knew alot of great people (y)
-Fell out and fall back in love again but both were failures for me.
-Grew fatter. Wtf this is the third saddest thing. tskkkkkkkk
- I think i drifted with my parents too. xxxxxxx
- Was broke most of the days
- Had my first job, where i got to get money, real money.
- Did alot of new stuff.
Overall,i would want 2010 to happen no matter how bad it was, because.....
i really want to spam you with sms, really want to be pathetic for now but then again how could i.
Dear god, please make 2011 a better year
For my studies and for people around me, for everything xxxxxx love

2010-12-30T07:07:00.000-08:00

I dont want to abandoned this blog of mine
but i guess for now till school starts it will be worse.
Hmm last week for me to enjoy and all
Tomorrow i will just go awhile cause i want to spend time with myself tmr^^
idk whats wrong.
I should really be happy but i dont feel happy @ all.
T.R. I KNOWWWWWWWWWWW HAISSSSSS PRETTIER RIGHT PRETTIER RIGHT PRETTIER RIGHT. K FORGET IT
HMM, SHOPPING I NEED YOUUUU

18-25

2010-12-26T07:57:00.000-08:00

Went japan. Was boring and so cold. Good thing i got to see snow though.
Very lazy to blog about it in details. The shopping suck though but the milk,chocolates and icecream was the sex. Mad love grow fat already.
Ahhh yet i am still so tired and dont feel like exercising at all.
Christmas went out, exchanged gifts and all.Not much christmas feeling at all this year and i hate to quarrel with people during occasions like this. Hmm idkkkkkkkkk k lucky you made it better. k BYE DONT LIE TO ME

2010-12-23T04:19:00.000-08:00

hi! I am blogging from japan noww. Everything's nice! Back tomorrowwww miss me

Bye world. Back on christmas!!!

2010-12-17T22:21:00.000-08:00

Hehehhe i am flying off tonight 12am. Okay sunday 12am
Hehehehe byebye!!! Miss me okay!!!!
I will try and get your goodies if your miss me!
SANTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
CHRISTMASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS CANT WAIT
BUT AFTER CHRISTMAS REAL WORK START.
BIO/PACK I NEED TO DO THESE TWO
OMG BUSY BITCH
HMMM AND I REALLY NEED MY ONLINE STUFF :(((((((
I WANT I WANT I WANT
I SHALL WHINE LIKE A BABY TILL SOMEONE GETS ME SOME
K LA JOKING
HOW OLD ALREADY!?!?!?!
AND I REALISED I REALLY LOVE TO CAPS
CAUSE EVERYTHING IS PRETTIER WITH CAPS
LOVE ME KKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOX
COME FIND ME T1 HEHEHEHEHEE LOVE YOU PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANT TO COME BACK AND BUY MY CUTE PERFUME!!!!!! HOPE THERE GOT^^^^^ YOU KNOW.
AND I WILL MISS ALL OF YOU

17/12

2010-12-17T07:14:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday mummy!
Thanks for everything<3
Used to think family wasn't as important as friends/relationships, but now i really love my family!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hahahhaa hope you like the cake! And get well soon we are going off tmr already!!!
So tues stayed @ home and rot.
Wed i went to meet peace!!!( Subway+ presents!!!)
Hers will come very late :(
Sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hehhehehe she damn funny one. And lucky she controlled me from eating cause monday and tues i ate like mad.
Thurs very angry!!!!!!!! The shop i wanted to buy my stuff wasnt open! And i got my fav koi<3 Happy girl!!!!! And wasn't in the mood for steamboat :(
And fareast!!!!!!! Hmmmmmm i saw a shoe and braclet i like. How.
Jp for mummy's cake!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FML. I need to return my mum money when i get my pay!
And i want to buy the shoe and braclet :(
And the dress and my bag and peace's present and alotttt
My things came already! LOVE THE EARPIECE <3 AND WHAT ELSE ^^^^^^^ THE RING WAS A DISAPPOINTMENT HOWEVER
Okay, i counted my pay and realised if i buy all the things i want i would be broke.
Maybe i wont get the bracelet and shoe already :( Next year if still there......
wait for me kkkkkk
Today i went to eat fattyfood with dad!!! I ate salad but he kept on giving me his burger so.......... no difference
ahahahahahaa
k la nevermind its damn nice.
I think yami yoghurt and salad is the best invention ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hmmm and i went home before heading to plaza singapura!!!!!!! I went there to meet them for 30mins only as i need to go home!!!!!
Happy birthday bryant/bryan!!!!! Hhahahaa idk the spelling :(
Hmmm hope your enjoyed yrself!!!!

I hope you have a safe trip back ^^ and still remember me.
I will be going to Japan from tmr night 12am to sat morning!?!?!?!
Christmas in Singapore but christmas eve maybe not :(
SAD MUCH
Hmmm k la. So i will try to online and sms me to keep me alive i hope i can read xx
And i bought all the presents already except one!!!
Hehehehe happy but i spend like 150 on presents. omg sucks to be me!! But if everybody is happy everything is worth it!!!!!!! But i dont know if there's is anymore work for me!!! I hope there is. Hehehehe k la!!!!!!!
DONT MISS ME
THIS IS SUCHA LONG POST I DOUBT ANYONE WANT TO READ.

SAT-MON

2010-12-13T08:52:00.000-08:00

Work is killing me. Glad i wont be working tomorrow onwards.
Busy week ahead before flying off.
Okay i miss you like fucking lot.
But i dont think you will.
K bye.

Trash.

2010-12-09T06:15:00.000-08:00

Okay i am so angry now , or rather disappointed.
Hmm today went swimming with jinwen in the morning!
After that went to meet min before heading to ikea.
OMG MEATBALL+CHICKEN+COLESLAW(Y) AND THE CAKE IS SO TEMPTING
Okay we took almost 1h30mins to get to railmail!
And we were so tired by that time so abit no mood take pics already!
So we spent like 30mins taking pics and i got 7 mosquitos bite.
Hahahha and i went home and eat alot cause i was angry!
I am not working tomorrow anymore :(
I very sad cause no money! How!!??!?! The person bluff me:@
K lor. Sad to the max cause of something else also:(

Finally.

2010-12-08T04:31:00.000-08:00

Hahahhaa i slept alot today! Just so sleepy and lazy!
So i go swimming :(
Met ninglu and she accompanied me to job interview.
Not so much of a interview but just feel in the form thing.
And qualified lor! But havent got my timing and all this.
So fri to mon = work
tues to fri = work also
Hahahhaa but all cant get pay until i am back :(
Went ninglu to bugis. Bought one ring and one shirt.
omg i need my wallet.
And i like one dress so much but it's a curve out dress i cant take such dresses :(
Hmmm how?!?!?!?!
Hahahaha christmas presents!! Cant wait for trip to be over and christmas(y)
I want christmas to last.

A new week.

2010-12-07T06:22:00.000-08:00

Today peace,ninglu and jinwen came my house.
Yinling flew to China today :(
Hahahaha me and jinwen jog awhile (Okay actually 15mins i think)
But we both had flu and was sooo tired!
Then went to pick peace up and went ninglu house to meet her.
We slacked and use computer till 12.
I cooked maggi! Hhahahaha but fail cause no taste.
Okay great!And did abit of work and jw and peace helped me paint my nails!!
Bought OPI at super cheap yesterday!
If peace never say the other colour i chose was ahma colour, i would have bought another one!:@ Hahhahahahaa
And went ninglu house awhile before going back.
OMG I NEED TO GO QUEENSWAY AND CINE.HMMMMMM HOW. I AM GOING TO DIE SOON
I NEED TO WORK! Please! I hope i can do both jobs!!!! I will try my best to complete my work!!

Monday.

2010-12-06T06:39:00.001-08:00

What a great day though i ate alot.
K today went to queensway bought my bag.
Went fareast and meet ninglu&peace.
The shops there still the same leh!
And yoghurt>chicken>bubble tea omg right!!!!
Hahahahaha i still prefer yami yoghurt though. i want to try swirl art!
But the bubble tea was the sex. SOOOOOOO NICE.
and went home with them^^
They coming my house tomorrow! Happy!
hahahaha love them alot! And the things we talk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That's why i love girls ;)
But i wont fall for your la.:@
K byebyebye he is gone :(

Fri

2010-12-04T01:29:00.000-08:00

Rapunzel was nice^^
Hehehehe i love the company!
I know i always moodswing alot :(
Dont likex100
Hehhehe i will try to be happy next time.
And omg i was so retarded to wear heels.

2dec

2010-12-02T06:23:00.000-08:00

Time really flies.
It's decemeber already alright.
Many things havent been going well lately but i still got to move on.
Next year chiong already and after o's it will be shiok!
Hehehhee <3
And i am glad i can wear the shoes.
went haji lane today took very little pictures you know :(
HMMMMMMMMMM LIKE THAT LOR AND KOI AND TAKO VERY NICE.
k la k la bye.
I need my dress. FULLSTOP.

27nov

2010-11-26T19:20:00.000-08:00

One month since my birthday sia!
OMGGGGGGGG.
No mood do homework.
But i know its all waiting for me. Buck up sam!:)
Hehehehe i am strong like always.
Perhaps it was another false hope.
But perhaps it will also make me stronger.
Dont need to feel guilty/You are a jerk all this.
Thanks for the 2/3 weeks.
Really appreciate those gestures.
hHEHEHEHE BUT I WILL APPRECIATE THEM AS A FRIEND OKAYYYYY
Thought it was the end of the world for me but it isnt.
Nothing is.
Just take it that i am fated to meet a prince or maybe study hard for my o's next year.
Hehehehe all this is cannot force one.
I am just silly enough to think so highly of myself (Y)
but samantha is so good right. I am so nice what to not like about me yeah ?
Hehehe i know i sad. But everything will be alright. I know i am so sad but its okay one.
Dont sad for me la.
Marcus/velencia
Hehehhee i am super duper okay!
Thanks for the cookies/earings/comfort and stuff.
Really glad to have you as my parents.
HEHEHEHEHHEHEE

25NOV

2010-11-25T06:14:00.000-08:00

I have never been so frequent in updating.
But i really need to rant so i am here.
Really fml today!
I am so sad.
Hahahahah its been so long since i was sad i hope?
Life have been such a bitch.
Its so boring till it hurts.
I dont know if i am happy or sad.
I feel sad sometimes.
This is all perhaps wrong.
Shouldnt come till here.
Shouldnt be right here.
Shouldnt started all this.
I really want to die nowww
I am only glad for the soup. Okay wtf But it really made me happy awhile okay.
I dont know what is my fucking problem. Getting so jealous easily even when we aint together.
But i finally expose the real me. Its a good thing perhaps.
I dont like to be different in front of you.
I feel so fake. I feel like cutting myself up.
I bitch alot really.xx
I am like that.
It isnt to late to take back what you said that day.
If we should stop this tell me, before i fall further.
I dont know if i have fallen for you.
What did it take?
Less than a month?
Samantha you totally fail.
I feel like gorging myself with sleeping pills cause i really have nothing.
okay just seriously fml x10.
I feel like dieing.
I Know i am so emotional now.
I guess pms is setting in.
Bye for today.

2010-11-23T05:35:00.000-08:00

I dont know if this is the right choice.
I know i need good time management to get through all this.
I dont know if our interests are the same.
I dont know if this is the right path but i am willing to try.
I really want to learn how to treat a person well.
I really have many weaknesses. Just that some are still unknown to you.
I need alot of attention. I get jealous easily. I will always anyhow think.
I lie. I bitch about others. I break promises. I am not that kind.
That's how imperfect i am.
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
To N.
i know you dont like me like that. I know what i promise you.( to never ps you again)
I know all this. I know its my fault i know its wrong.
You always try to treat me the best. Tell me everything go out with me be there for me when i am unhappy. Give me the best advice. Shop together. Gossip tgther(though sometimes we do really repeat things alot).
Sorry. If i had to make a choice i would chose you no matter what.
But do accept me for me being like that.
I really love all the people i just met and all those around me.
You said i wouldnt understand why you got angry.
Perhaps not totally.
I know. I lied. I promised you and i lied.
Its not about the company much its about the promise.
But all i can say is sorry x
I am really not good at asking for forgiveness here.
I will try to make it up to you. idk how but i will.
I dont want to ruin all this.
Do support me and be there for me no matter what i do.
I love you<3

23/11

2010-11-23T05:26:00.000-08:00

Hehehhee today went out with ninglu and sister.
Went to westmall with ninglu and went to meet sister to go bugis after that.
Hehehehe bought stuff i really like. But today aint a good day at all.
And i am really broke. Pocket money finish already and...........still got thurs.
HMMMMMMMMMMMMMM HOW :( I FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF FOR NOT CONTROLLING MYSELF. X3
Felt like dieing in the train ( Mad crowd+hungry and tired+ sick)
Hehehhehe
glad i really know some good friends but that doesnt meant i would not want the old friends anymore. I love them x2 right!
You know that yourself ;)
I am what type of person i hope you understand.
That's where my weakness are.
Perhaps you dont approve cant accept but in time you will!
Hehehehe study! Tuition starting dec!
Work how :(

The whole of Nov

2010-11-22T18:30:00.000-08:00

Life have been pretty normal.
The first three weeks of nov was just lessons and poa course which of course would be classified as plain boring. Didnt learn much as had no mood.
After everything was over it had been going out almost everyday for me.
Hehehhee i am going to meet ninglu now.
And really catch up with alot of my friends and you know ;)
Well i have also bought many online stuff and am going $$$$$less.
HAHAHAHAHAAHHA
Well it been a pretty good week other than i hate myself for slacking too much.
No homework, no books no piano, no tuition,no exercise.
How many times have i asked myself to get into the gym?
But well, at least i have started. Good start.
How many times have i told my mum i will go and call my tuition teacher!
Well, thats me ;)
And its piano tomorrow. I will surely die.
Really miss certain people!
Go out soon yeah!Love your!:)

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Other than that, i dont know where this friendship will head into.
I am unsure. But i guess i am prepared to get over you B.
SO LONG SO LONG SO LONG.
It may not have been the most i will die for you kind of love but it surely was the most trueful one. This one year. Hehehehehe one sided love.
Go and find yours now then ;)
I will not send you anymore kind of msgs you dont like anymore.
all this while.
This time i will just wait and accept.

1/11/2010

2010-11-01T00:47:00.000-07:00

Today's brendon birthday!!!
Happy birthday!!!!!!:)
Though one year ago, everything was the same, that heart of mine felt more now.
I know you wouldnt care but i do.
Well, be happy:)I LOVE YOU.
YAY
OKAY BYE <3

27/10

2010-10-27T04:51:00.000-07:00

Hello everybody!!
I wish myself happy birthday okay!!;)
Hmmmm. yeah thanks all for the wishes!
Esp Ninglu& Yinling for spending 2 days with me:)
And Min, Huilin for going out with me too!
And of course jinwen,claris and peace who couldnt come :( But still thanks and love your all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yeah thanks mum,dad and sister for the cake and presents!
And well thanks to all the rest for the msgs/wishes.
HMMM OKAY YEAH I AM HAPPY SOMEHOW.
however one thing which could make my rest of my life happy didnt come true.
But well.